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At just under 37 weeks pregnant, I'm about ready for this party to start as I currently sit here being 3cm dilated and 80% effaced.  I didn't blog much at all towards to end of my pregnancy with Evan, so I'm really going to try to do a better job this time so I have this to look back on!  I'm excited to know that the birth of this babe and the recovery I'll undergo marks the closing of this chapter of my life called infertility.  It's been 8 years of treatment, many fails, zero natural conceptions, but 3 beautiful IVF conceptions.  I'm grateful for the perfect timing of each procedure I've undergone.  I'm thankful for my healthy children.  And I'm so glad I got to share this journey with everyone.  Writing about the hardships of infertility was my escape and without any intention, I was able to reach a lot of people going through the same journey.  I'm extra thankful for the friendships and support I've gained from those of you that have ...
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Hi 🙋 #stillprego

You guys, I haven't been feeling super great lately.  We went through an episode last week where Khloe got the stomach flu and passed it around to the rest of us.  I will tell ya, the stomach bug on top of first trimester pregnancy symptoms is tough to beat on a scale of 1 to crappy.  I'm 8w3d today which means I'm not anywhere close to being out of this trimester for another month or so.  BUT, that's okay.  This is normal, real-life stuff that people do.  So let's switch gears from whiny to "yay!" Since my last post, I've had two ultrasounds and I will have another one coming up on February 6.  I like to call that a little "infertile perk" that those of us who undergo fertility treatments get as we are very closely monitored during our first trimesters.  So far, the baby has looked great!  And yes, I said baby in reference to just one little solo guy/girl in there.  We saw the heartbeat at 6 weeks and at 8 weeks I saw the arms and l...

Update on Number 7

Our second beta test was today.  The doctor is still monitoring my HCG levels in hopes that they would approximately double over the past two days.  I didn't get a call back nearly as fast as I did on Monday, but I did receive the call late this afternoon with news that my HCG has increased from 561 to 1259.  Yay! I have to continue taking a progesterone shot each day (which is totally not cool, but I've had to do it with both previous IVF pregnancies until being released to my regular OB) until my next appointment on January 9th for our first ultrasound.

Not "Lucky" Number 7

For a very long time I have known that the number seven has many biblical references and meanings.  I decided to do some looking into that to take my mind of our two-week-wait.  Turns out, the number seven is used 735 times in the bible and it is also the number of completion and perfection.  It's tied to God's creation of all things and it's biblical references really do go on and on.  The word "created" is used 7 times describing God's creative work.  And then, of course, there are 7 days in a week with the Sabbath being on the 7th day.  That being said, this is our 7th fertility cycle.  Our first cycle, back in the beginning of 2010, was an IUI (intrauterine insemination) which proved to be unsuccessful from the beginning.  We jumped straight to IVF in June of 2010, which was again another failure.  Not only was it hard to accept failure of an IVF cycle, it was hard going into an IVF cycle knowing that, aside from a miracle, this was o...

Here We Go: TWW Number Seven

It's been two days since the frozen embryo transfer and a little bit of fear is starting to set in.  The dreaded "two week wait" has officially begun....for the seventh time, for me. Hope is a strange thing for me right now.  Of course, I had "hoped" that the embryos would survive the thaw and when I found out they did, I felt an overwhelming surge of emotion and a lot of joy in knowing that those prayers we had all prayed had been answered.  After receiving that great news, we underwent the transfer per usual procedures (one that I have done over half a dozen times before), headed out for lunch, just Kellen and I, picked up the kids and then headed home.  Since the moment I arrived home, I've been trying my best to "sit."  As I sit and lounge around trying to remain on bed rest, I have some time to think.  No matter how hard I try, my mind wanders and wishes and worries and struggles to always hope for the best.  Hope is risky in the infertility...

Tis the Season for Overcomplicating Life and Praying that God Works In Miraculous Ways

I've realized over the years that when I'm in the midst of an IVF cycle, every single day matters.  Each successful day is another chance to continue on and move forward towards the end goal, which is a healthy, established pregnancy.  Yesterday, I had a scan to check that my body was responding properly to the medication for this frozen cycle.  A scan for a typical IVF cycle would always consist of the nurse measuring and counting the follicles (which sometimes would be on the upside of 15-20 for me) but a scan for a frozen cycle is the total opposite.  They want to make sure that my ovaries aren't producing any follicles and that the uterine lining is thickening as we prepare to transfer these babies.  As the nurse said, "no news is good news," and we didn't receive any news, so yay. I did ask Kellen to call Reprotech yesterday and triple confirm that our embryos would be arriving at Dr. Jarrett's office on the 12th.  I'm totally not OCD, but if I ...

Ultrasound, Blood Draw and Prayer Requests

Hey all -- Just a brief post tonight humbly asking for prayers tomorrow morning at 10am.  I am heading in to the office for an ultrasound scan and blood draw (nothing out of the ordinary, just a scheduled "check-up") to make sure my body is responding properly to the meds and that everything is looking good as we prep for the embryo transfer on the 14th.  If everything looks good, Dr J ups my estradiol on Wednesday and I take a trigger shot Friday and begin progesterone oil shots daily (ughhhh...) until the end of time, or at least until pregnancy is established and I'm transferred to an OB.  I'm getting nervous as each day passes.  We don't have our shots yet.  They should be overnighted on Wednesday.  Kellen will be on a work trip beginning Wednesday and I leave with the kids for Breckenridge on Friday.  We seem to have a thing for scheduling IVF cycles during the busiest month of the year, but God works in the midst of mass chaos, right?  Thi...