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Christmas Eve

I have all kinds of emotions, so I'm not even going to begin to express them on here.  During our final week of waiting, we had a good idea that the IVF process had failed.  I called the doctor's office one week before Christmas Eve to tell them I had taken a test which came back negative and I was about 99% sure (due to other reasons besides a store bought test) we had a failed cycle.  I didn't even want to take the time to think about a failed cycle.  I was ready to act like it never happened, move on, get off these crazy drugs, and start it all over again until we get a freaking BFP.  Well, the doctor said it was too early and I needed to finish out the cycle.  I went to have my blood test done first thing the morning of Christmas Eve.  Our doctor called us around 10am to confirm the test was negative and discuss our next steps. 

We are meeting with him early next week to discuss the failed round and see where we want to go next.  

Extra thankful for my little Khloe right now.

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  1. erinDecember 27, 2012 at 2:48 PM

    So sorry to hear about this Jen. I hope you all were able to still enjoy Christmas with your family. Praying for you. Please let us know if there is anything we can do.

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    1. JenniferDecember 27, 2012 at 3:20 PM

      Thanks Erin :-) I was mad at myself for picking this time of year to try again. I never considered that we could/would get a positive test for Christmas! I'm not dwelling on it, though. Thank God for insurance so we can try again!

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    2. JenniferDecember 27, 2012 at 3:21 PM

      Woops, I mean negative, not positive. I WISH!

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  2. Ashley MileyDecember 27, 2012 at 10:55 PM

    Thinking of you...love you!

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