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NIAW and Me

This week is National Infertility Awareness Week.  If I had to stand for anything, I stand for this.  Infertility has changed me.  I am no longer the same person I was in 2008.  I have been tested, pushed beyond my limits, had my heart ripped out of my chest, the air knocked out of my lungs....I have been knocked down, experienced depression, grief, and loss.  The last 7 years have been the biggest roller coaster ride of my life, but I have come out on top.  I beat the $%*z out of infertility in 2010 when the doctor transferred three of our embryos and I became pregnant with my healthy and happy little girl, Khloe.  She's a fighter as well, from the beginning when she beat out her two other sibings for the uteral win.  [insert fist bump annnnnnd blow it up]

I'm not sure I could come up with the perfect verbiage to encourage those of you experiencing this roller coaster ride for yourself.  I can empathize, and I can listen.  But, above anything else, I would give you my best pep talk, a quick massage to your shoulders and traps, smack your a$$ and tell you to get your game face on.  Infertility is not for the weak. 

And now, we are giving it a go again.  Today we met with Dr. Jarrett and prepped for our next IVF cycle.  I start pills in 2 weeks and surgical procedures will be sometime in early June.  Dr. Jarrett seemed surprised that I was ready to give it a go again.  My previous experience was so terrible (and heart wrenching) but I'm glad it happened to me rather than an IVF newbie or a trying-mom who has yet to have a child.  I have Khloe.  She's perfect and more than anything I could ever ask for.  I'm beyond grateful for her, but she wants a little sister (I say sibling, bc I mean, let's not get picky) and we're going to fight to make that happen.

Excuse the aggression in this posting.  ;-) My adrenaline is pumping today and I'm ready for this ride again.

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