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Final Days

I went grocery shopping today and now I'm exhausted.  Although it's a good thing that I stocked us up on food and supplies just in time for this baby to show up, I'm still amazed at how much of my energy was sucked out just walking through the store.  And how bad my hip, leg, and all my bones hurt!  I can't tell if this baby's head is smashing my hip bone or passing through and into my quad. 

I found out yesterday that my doctor is out of the country on vacation until next Monday.  I was so frustrated when I got this news, and I realize that doctors need vacations, but I really don't understand why I wasn't told beforehand that she would be leaving the country during my final week of pregnancy?!  So needless to say, I've been having a hard time getting answers to my questions.  I called yesterday to let them know I've woken up the past 3-4 days with swollen hands and calves/ankles.  I haven't had hardly any swelling this pregnancy, and having it so suddenly, and only in the mornings is really weird.  So while my doctor is out, the rest of the staff is "monitoring" me for blood clots in my calves.  I found a little humor in the nurse telling me to call her this morning if I woke up with any pain in my calves knowing that I had just finished a workout that day full of double unders.  I think a little calve pain would be imminent.  I also feel like I've been really active this entire pregnancy, so getting blood clots would probably not happen anyways.

Another reason for my call was to discuss induction.  As I've written about before, I'd really like to avoid the traumatic delivery and recovery I had with Khloe, so I wanted my doctors opinion and thoughts on induction.  In my mind, maybe this would help me to avoid having another big baby, 3rd degree, and blood transfusion.  I went into labor last time with a "game plan" of being 100% natural, which I mostly was, until the pitocin, and then the crooked baby head, and the significant loss of blood.  The labor part wasn't so bad, but the recovery process was brutal and uncommon and something I wouldn't wish on anybody.  It was definitely an experience that has made me lean this time toward a more "controlled" delivery.  But what do I know?  Nothing.

Thank God I have a friend like Jill to help me during this time.  :-)  We're visiting the Kocher's tonight and I'm hoping for a baby within the next day or two.  Wishful thinking maybe -- but I'm ready!

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