I'm happy that it's March. That means SPRING, and flowers, and blooming trees, and fresh air. Although I am happy that spring is near, I'm pretty bummed that I'm still dealing with this IVF cycle that started on December 30th. Last Monday, I went in to check that my HCG level had dropped - and it had, down to 76 (from 96). I was asked to repeat the blood test again in a week, so I went in this morning and just received the call that my HCG level dropped to 59. It's a good sign that it is dropping, but it is so discouraging that we're already into March and my body can't kick this. It's hard to let go of my original plan, especially when the plan was to try another IVF cycle in March if the January cycle had failed. Well, here we are March. And here we are [still] January cycle.
Sometimes life doesn't go as planned.....HA. You'd think I would know that by now. I don't know what's worse, paying for IVF and ending with both a miscarriage and an ectopic pregnancy that I'm forced to "dissolve", or not paying for fertility, and getting nowhere. I shouldn't even think about what's worse, because I know that whatever the outcome, it is all part of the bigger picture.
Romans 8:26-28
26-28 Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.
Sometimes life doesn't go as planned.....HA. You'd think I would know that by now. I don't know what's worse, paying for IVF and ending with both a miscarriage and an ectopic pregnancy that I'm forced to "dissolve", or not paying for fertility, and getting nowhere. I shouldn't even think about what's worse, because I know that whatever the outcome, it is all part of the bigger picture.
Romans 8:26-28
26-28 Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.
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