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C'mon Maaaaan

Got my labs back today, numbers went up to 96.  Apparently, that's normal for it to rise, so whatever...don't care anymore.  I go back Monday to get stabbed in my arm again so they can check my HCG level.  And this is ironic, but can I get a negative test, already!?  Mentally, I have moved on.  There are better things ahead for me so I can't allow myself to get stuck in past failures.

I'm working out again.  I signed up for this dang CrossFit Open that I'm totally going to blow.  I hope I can do 5 burpees in a row without passing out...  I will say though, I love my mindset when it comes to CrossFit right now.  My gym is running the Open intramural style, which means we split up into teams and compete for "spirit of the games".  I mean, you get points for doing the workouts and being a top finisher, but nobody cares about that.  We are going to dress up like idiots and act like fools to win those Spirit of the Games points.  Coaches will recruit and draft our team members SEC football style, which means I'll probably be offering people free cars, houses and lots of money.  Clearly, this is a big deal.

So back to the purpose of this post, hopefully my Monday blood draw will be down significantly and life can get back to normal.  I did say a few weeks ago February was "going to be AWESOME" but I did not forsee a [good] positive pregnancy test followed shortly by a [bad] ectopic/miscarriage.  There are 9 days left in this month, though.  A lot of awesomeness can occur in 9 days time.  And 9 is my number.

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