Weird Things I Don't Understand

Today, 8 days since my last beta, I went back in to the lab for yet another blood draw to determine my HCG level. Last Thursday it was at 63.5. Today, it was back up to 68. I have no idea what's going on, but this is definitely not a good thing. Dr. Jarrett wants me to come in tomorrow morning at 8:15am so he can see what is going on.

In my mind, the main thing that sucks about this is that my body is still stuck on this January cycle and we can't move on with the process. Dr. Jarrett has said that my cycle will not be back to normal until my HCG drops back down to zero. Hopefully, we'll get some answers tomorrow. Once things are back to normal, we'll still have to wait 2 full cycles until we can try again.

Still hoping and praying for a natural miracle, but if God wants to use IVF again, whatevs. :-)

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