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Sometimes I feel like this is never going to end... but I know once I'm through it I'll look back and realize that this time, although tough, will have gone by fast.  I remember when we found out I was pregnant with Khloe we were excited!  We went out and celebrated!  This pregnancy has started out differently.  We haven't had the opportunity to really celebrate and get excited much.  We've both been dealing with, what feels like, a very long and debilitating illness on my part. 

Today, I was unable to get out of bed until 4pm.  I felt so terrible all day that I couldn't do anything different.  It was supposed to be a very busy day -- I had three different events planned -- but I had to cancel everything to stay inside, in bed, trying to control pain with medication.  I think I'm starting to feel sorry for myself..... it makes me sad sometimes.  But, I have to force myself to see the bigger picture.  Once I'm through these symptoms of OHSS, I should be in the easier part of pregnancy - the second trimester.  And then, maybe I can enjoy being pregnant and get excited about it.  All in all, no matter how terrible this has been, it exactly what I wanted, hoped, and prayed for.  I am pregnant and that is a blessing and a gift from God.  I would do this all over again if I had to.

I also have a lot to look forward to once I am through these hard days.

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